Yesterday I got into a little conversation about church and God.
I have wanted to find a church that I like and I've yet to find one that I really like. I've been to a few churches and I've always come away thinking it was a waste of time. Nothing ever moved me. The Priests, Pastors whatever were always talking at me and over my head. I could relate nothing of what they were saying to anything in my life. I would finally get so bored with trying to figure out what they were saying that I would start contemplating the statues, or the stained class windows, or what's that spot way up there on the wall?? Anything to keep me from falling asleep.
Maybe that's my problem too. I'd go to the early services so it wouldn't seem like I wasted my WHOLE day in church. (Yeah, pretty sure God's gonna send that lighting bolt right about now.) I joined the choir at St. Mary's thinking: 'Hey, at least I get to sing!'
On a side note: I tried to become a Catholic for all the wrong reasons. It wasn't till my second or third attempt at RCIA that I realized that Catholicism wasn't the religion for me. I don't even remember what was said in that class that turned me off... It was also what one of the Priests did at mass... It just dawned on me: 'I don't believe that's right, or true. How can I be apart of a religion that I don't fully believe in?' So that was it for me and Catholicism.
But anyways... back to the conversation last night. I have two super amazing Christian friends that go to a certain church that I've yet to try out a service with their 'regular' pastor speaking. I do intend to do this... some day! (I promise!) Last night I said something like: 'I want to find a church I like, but I don't want to feel bad if I don't want to go. ' I should have said: ' I want to want to go to church.' I don't want it to feel like a chore, something else that has to be done. (That has been all my other church experiences.) I tried to make it better by saying: 'I have a relationship with God and he says it's cool that I don't go to church.' To which one of my friend's jokingly said: 'Yeah, that's in the bible...'
I have never read the bible (big surprise) I've tried... but... yeah. So I was thinking: 'Its really in the bible that you have to go to church!? You can't just have your own relationship with God??' Really??
Anyways.... I DO have a relationship with God. And really, isn't that all that matters??
2 comments:
SAP.....Don't forget that you always pray!!! So, yes, you do have a relationship with God! xoxo
Well...I don't want to bore the poo out of you with a long explanation why it is good to go to church...because depending on the church...I might be lying. However, I will be quick in saying that if you are willing...it can have a very positive influence in your relationship with God. What I mean to say is, it can make your relationship with God stronger to spend time with others who also have a relationship with God. Sorta like how when you hang out with people who enjoy singing karaoke...it makes singing karaoke a lot more enjoyable. Well...maybe that's not the best example...but karaoke is more fun with people who enjoy it. Anyway...check out Hebrews 10:25. If you can find a healthy church to be a part of...do it. I don't think going automatically gets you into heaven...but you know...just in case! ;-)
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