Crappy

This week has been crappy as far as mornings go. I've been late to work for the majority of this week. My patience is low/non-existent.... This morning I was yelling at Bea to wake up. Millie was irritable and whinny and I just couldn't take it anymore. So I went to my ipod player and pushed play and turned up the music. Really, really, REALLY loud. And just started dancing, singing along and being silly. Millie joined in immediately and Beatrice slept through it. Figures. I got dressed while singing and dancing and then went to wake up Bea. AGAIN. I told her I would pick something out for her to wear.

She said: NO! I want to pick something out, but first I want to sleep for just one more minuet. To which I replied: No! We're late! You know what? You can just go to school like that, in your pj's.
Then she freaked out and jumped up and found something to wear. But I still had to make her a waffle for the road, chocolate milk, and get Camille's pants on because she didn't want to wear them!

And after I dropped off Bea, Millie was acting whinny and irritable again and I just turned on the radio full blast... I just couldn't deal with it. I'm so tired! The night before I went to sleep with the girls - like I ALWAYS do - all 3 of us in a twin bed. Not. Fun. The girls fell asleep and I snuck out. But like 30 min. later they both came into my room. So back to their bed I went. Bea fell asleep right away but Millie had an awful night and I was up for a good 3 hours with her trying to get her to sleep. It's just kind of been a week full of crappy nights and mornings and I'm just over it. Camille has cried every day this week when I've dropped her off at Mary's she doesn't want to go. I hate it! It breaks my heart. I just want to pick her up and take her home and just hold her all day when she does that...

I've been trying to squeeze in time to go over my lines because we're supposed to be off book this week. Meaning we're not supposed to be holding our scripts in our hands and reading off of them. Last night we learned a dance for our Mermaid song. Yeah. That was fun. My 'sisters' and I were going to the lobby to practice our new dance and one of them (they're all younger than me) said: You know you're so pretty, you look like a teenager! I was like: Really? Thanks, that's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me.. haha.. Then I was thinking: Just wait till you're older and look back on the pictures and stuff you'll realize: damn that girl really was old! :) I always have trouble when I'm cast with younger people. Especially if we're supposed to give the illusion that we're friends or family... I just don't have anything in common with them so it's hard to get to know them or create a friendship with them off stage...

Oh well. Gotta get back to it.